Kao da ne znam
Da se naša bliskost neće po dobru pamtiti.
Kao da ne znam
da se neke reči i dela ne mogu vratiti
čak i kada bih to od sveg srca htela.
Kao da ne znam da me tvoje oči pomno prate, svuda.
Eto, zakoračila sam prema tebi,
rekla sam ti sve što znam,
sve što me boli.
Trebalo bi biti lakše ali meni nije. Ustvari, loše mi je.
Znak loš, telo se bori protiv tebe.
Glava, razum, truje sve ostalo,
sve se u groznici trese i zebe.
Kao da ne znam
Da se ovakve stvari nikome ne dese sem meni.
As if I don’t know
That our closeness won’t be remembered for any good.
As if I don’t know
that I can’t retract some words and deeds
even if I wanted to, wholeheartedly.
As if I don’t know that your eyes keenly watch over me, everywhere.
There, I made a step towards you,
I told you everything I know,
Everything that pains me.
It should have eased the pain but it didn’t. In fact, I’m ill.
It’s a bad sign, my body fights you.
My head and mind poison the rest,
everything shakes and shivers in fever.
As if I don’t know
that these things happen to no one else but me.
